Sunday, February 28, 2010
validation
Saturday, February 27, 2010
insomnolent
Friday, February 26, 2010
Fractions.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
blustery day.
Winnie the pooh: My favorite thing is me coming to visit you, and then you ask, "How about a small smackeral of honey?"
Christopher Robin: I like that, too. But what I like most of all is just doing nothing.
Winnie the Pooh: How do you do just nothing?
hristopher Robin: Well, when grown-ups ask, "What are you going to do?" and you say, "Nothing," and then you go and do it.
Winnie the Pooh: I like that. Let's do it all the time."
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
rhymes with puck...
A penny for your pinafore?
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Time Machine
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Locomotion.
I love trains. Somehow they instill much less anxiety than flying, and everything about them is just so relaxing to me. Because I’ve flown so much more often than I’ve had reason to go on a train, until my trip to Europe the train did instill a lot of anxiety in me because I just didn’t know how to navigate them. How long will it stop? How will I know when to get off? What if I can’t get off quickly enough? After Europe I came to appreciate it because of all that it offers, and stopped having flashbacks to scenes from "Fried Green Tomatoes" (2:55). Rather than getting to see our country’s finest six lane roadways, you see woods and bodies of water. You aren’t burdened by traffic, and you can go the most direct route possible. I simply adore the convenience of the train.
These days it breaks my heart that it isn’t more economical to take the train or I would take it so much more. There’s a certain old time glamour to the train that makes me feel more connected to the past. My grandparents just returned from a train trip across Canada leaving my grandmother disappointed. It simply didn’t have the “Dick and Jane” era charm that she’d remembered. The dining car was just that, not the social scene she’d remembered with laughing and networking. There was no music and dancing, no getting to know the couple in the next cabin over. "Things just aren’t like they used to be," she mused.
Medieval Times
Do you ever think about the point at which you would have died if we didn’t have modern technology? Sure, it’s morbid, but until yesterday I really thought I was the only one who thought about it… but not so, my mom definitely does too.
I’m never sure where to draw the line… should it be the civil war, or just the 1920s? Or, what about back in the days of King Arthur and Guinevere? The cavemen? I usually just decide arbitrarily depending on my mood, but tend to settle for “medieval times”.
Two months ago, my mother herniated three disks in her neck leaving her unable to get comfortable outside of bed and with a stabbing pain shooting down her arm. She was in bed working from home for seven weeks. Just last week she finally got surgery to replace the worst of the three herniated disks. She felt better almost immediately, and thanks to two surgeons (orthopedic and neuro) and an anesthesiologist, post op was distinctly less miserable than the two months before.
She was doing her best to undo all the hazards of immobility she’d acquired, so we went for a walk around the neighborhood. She asked what I thought would have happened if she had been born 100 years ago, and in that moment I knew we were made from the same mold. We decided blood letting was a given, perhaps several rounds, and pondered if they would have known it was a neck issue – would they have treated her arm instead? She probably wouldn’t have died, unless she got an infection from contaminated leeches or something, but she likely would have been bedridden for the rest of her life… which knowing my mother would have ended with her being institutionalized from having a mental breakdown. How grateful we are that she was able to have the best of modern technology then because her life has resumed to better than it’s been since her neck starting getting bad two years ago.
When would my moment have been? Well, I was born a month early, but I don’t think I had any complications that I couldn’t have survived from. My lack of fasciotomy for chronic compartment syndrome would have rendered me unable to run, but if we’re going back 100 years, I’m not sure I would have been allowed to run competitively anyway. My wisdom teeth might have given me trouble, but I think they did tooth extractions (perhaps less humanely) back then, so I might have cleared that hurtle. I guess my medieval number hasn’t come yet (knock on wood!). Hopefully no numbers will come up anytime soon.
I’m not sure Roo would have ever been born, because I’m not really sure what happened before the RhoGam shot. Perhaps I would have had to watch my mom suffer several miscarriages until an A- child came about.
And my dad, well, despite losing the tips of his fingers and sustaining an arm threatening infection, somehow I think he would have been ok... I can’t say for sure but somehow I don’t think he couldn’t have beaten it… granted he might have lost that arm.
Room Service
This weekend while hanging out with my brother, I was reminded of one of my favorite memories… but it’s only one of my favorites because it’s been so long since it happened.
One summer, I believe it was the summer starting before the start of fourth grade, Roo and I became best pals. We’d had a rough patch from when he starting talking at the age of three (long story) until now, when he was six. Our parents were beginning to seem less reasonable every day, so we joined forces to make sure they didn’t try to put us to bed before dark. I loved thunderstorms, but he, like our beloved family dog Fergie, was petrified of them. Even though we had our own rooms, Roo had bunk beds, so I started sleeping on his top bunk so we could stay up and chat and I could protect him from thunderstorms.
Now to back up a little bit, Roo is (obviously) my little brother. These days he’s much taller than me and in his third decade of life, but he’ll always be my little brother. We could not be more opposite… to the point where I’ve considered we were up in heaven or wherever spirits are before they are born, doling out genetic material to make sure we didn’t overlap. We were often told we looked like identical twins (which annoyed me endlessly, 1) because we’re three years apart and 2) I’m a GIRL), but our similarities end there. Roo is musically gifted; I am not. I spent my early life with my nose in a book and Roo has never read a book in its entirety. Roo doesn’t speak unless it’s of the utmost importance, and I never stop chattering. He cried being dropped off at daycare, I cried being picked up…and the list goes on.
For the year or so before we started bickering again we got along famously. One night in particular stands out in my mind. I was on the top bunk, and had just gotten comfortable except I was parched. Roo had just gotten back from brushing his teeth and so I asked him ever so sweetly if he would mind getting me a cup of water so I didn’t have to get down. To my surprise, he nodded and went and got one as I opened my book (probably something in the “silver blades” series). He came back and stepped on the bottom rung of the ladder to hand me a cup of water. I thanked him genuinely and marveled (internally) at how close we’d become. As I got about halfway through the cup of water I started wondering when he had gotten tall enough to reach the faucet. Come to think of it, I hadn’t heard the faucet.
“Roo…When did you get big enough to turn on the faucet ?”
“I’m not.”
“Oh. How did you get the water then? Was there a stool?”
Silence. I leaned my head down from the top bunk to look at him.
“Roo, did this come from the toilet?”
And Roo grinned and nodded proudly.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Miracles.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Rabbit hole.
Two parts hydrogen, one part oxygen
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Judgment day.
Teeming with Seeming.
Worry.
Why?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Symbolism.
Like a Pheonix from the Ashes...
Nocturnal
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Mama always said...
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Gratifying gratification.
Pause.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Chemical Reactions
Sliding Scales....
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Reflection in the Snow.
We've always joked how panic sets in around DC at the site of a raindrop let alone a snowflake, but this is unlike anything else I've seen. Let's throw all common sense to the wind in a city that threw all their resources to the first storm of the decade (a few weeks ago) and see what happens. SNOWPOCALYPSE: THE SEQUEL.
Suddenly, snowpocalypse part 2 hits and all these people who normally can't stop whining about their lack of free time can't get out of their homes fast enough...and most of them don't have more than 6 inches of clearance under their cars or four wheel drive. Calamity ensues. The storm hit Friday and Saturday and I didn't venture out in a vehicle until Monday evening (I did make a few attempts at pedestrian activities which left me feeling quite mortal and a tad bit ruffled, all of which had to do with aforementioned drivers and an overall ignorance of the importance of pedestrian pathways). One would have thought that by rush hour Monday - 48 hours after the last flake had fallen - things would be passable in a 4 wheel drive vehicle that is one class below a hummer in the "tank" category. It was harrowing to say the least. Luckily my driver had a winning combination of confidence and experience, although I admittedly had moments where I doubted his sense, respect, and reverence for mortality, we arrived safe and sound. On our journey we were bumped around, slid (slewed), and often were stuck behind suddenly disabled vehicles. Pedestrians were walking in the middle of the streets (I'm their biggest advocate, but even I was miffed about their reckless endangerment of others as I noticed --jealously -- their nicely shoveled sidewalk), and cars would pull off to the "side" (aka stop in the middle with hazard lights flashing). Some of these people run our country -- what is going on? By all accounts it was a rapid fire of those absurd life moments, one after another. All we could do was laugh and hope for the best as we barreled over ice and through drifts to dodge obstacles.
One thing I didn't realize until this morning was the logic behind the lawn chairs. Last night and today, everywhere I looked there were fold out chairs. Are those for people to take breaks while they are shoveling? I thought idly. No, silly girl, they are people staking out their spot. They carefully shoveled their spot and they plan on it being there for them when they get back. Is this chair an effective flag for staking one's territory? Would I respect it? If I was looking for a spot, and my only option is one with a chair, or one I have to shovel, either way I have to exit my vehicle to park. Personally, I love JLO too much to put her in harm's way via a scorned shoveller, but I'm wondering just how well it works...
I'm back here at home and waiting for the first flakes of yet another storm that has promised to bring 8-10-12-18-24 inches to DC-Baltimore-Delaware.... this one has decided to come late, apparently. I'm not entirely sure what is going to happen if the recent 10-20 inch predictions come true. As one friend put it: "30+20=50... and that's only 15 inches shorter than me. What are we going to do with all that?"
We'll just have to see...